Empty

Today I woke up feeling rather empty. Your essence wasn't there this morning. First time I woke up alone since seven weeks ago.

I had the strong impulse to wake you up, but I remembered you didn't want me to. I had a hard time showering without thinking of you and if you had gotten up already. I got dressed and checked if you had updated your blog. No luck.

I dragged myself to work, but I couldn't manage to cheer up. I ranted with a friend that I don't feel good. He said I needed to get laid. It's not just that, I just want you!!! I come back to my place and see you log on. I have the urge to hit you up. Of course I don't do it because I want to be strong and manage. To my luck you hit me up, and suddenly I feel that warm and cozy feeling inside. I know you're ok and that you did wake up.

I'm about to prepare for a reality check. I need to know what I want and what am I willing to do. Right now the only things I know is that I need to be strong, that I love you more than anything (including myself) and that I have this urge to hug you and never let you go.

I love you.
I miss you.
I need you.

Welcome to the real world Violetta.